I would incessantly reminiscence on where we stood a month ago. Is this how much you weigh our relationship. Its undeniably so but yet i wonder why it happened yet once more. Trust always fails me, why is that so. Confidante would gave me a thousand reasons for it yet none could convince me. Spare me some, im sick and tired of being treated so. But greatfully every breakdown God provides me a listening ear.
Heal my wound instead of rubbing salt into it.

Ignore me for whatever i said on top, merely just to voice out my heart.

I really pity my father for having to undergo the torment of aches that caused him to go to and fro to the toilet since midnight. It really doesnt feel at all the same day anymore, cause he would be the one who woke me up daily and intrude my slumber but today seemed silent enough. Get well soon, pop. I really appreciate for every single time you spare me moments despite you being preoccupied to confide. None like you.

Made puddings by the help of M.Santoso, though at times i raised my voice at her for being slow-motion, she would still patiently helped me. And it turned out not as bad as i thought, yay for us.

P.S:It looks as though im writing dedication testimony for my family which is not the intention, so drop it out.


Under Your refuge and strength shall i carry on,
an even present help in trouble.
I would put my all in You,
no matter what fails me as He gave me peace.
Through all i can row by